Dinner

My mom is crying,and my anxiety is getting higher by the second.My dad is throwing things around,saying that the food is not good.Is never good for him.The tortillas are burn.Their are always burn for him.My mom is hsouting,I know everyone is hearing it.I hear my name been shouted out.Mine is the one that is always shout.I was scream that my grades are bad,but they are never good.
I am smart but not intelligent.I feel dumb,Im such an idiot.She wants me to do better when she clearly is saying that my grades are bad.
I am scare, I want guidness, I want someone tot ell me my best choices, but screaming at me for not doing the right thing will not guide me to the best route.
Im tired, I jsut wanna lye here and be left alone.I wanna be alone,like always,I wanna be just here,empty and silence,left in the dark.That's how it is,and that's how it always will be.Sometimes I wonder why someone is happy if you'll always end up sad.Then again, I try to  be , so I guess its my fault.Its always my fault.No one elses, just my fault...